I am in heaven now, sitting on God's Lap

He loves me and cries with me ; for myheart has been broken

I'm so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite uderstand what has happened

I was so excited when I began realize my existence

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes

I was pretty for a long in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings

I spent most of mytime thinking of sleeping

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry

I heard daddy yelling back

I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon

I wondered why you cried so much. One day your cried almost all of the day

I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy

That same day, the most horrible thing happened

A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in

I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me

Maybe you never heard me

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming

"Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me"

Complete terror is all I felt

I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore

Then the monster started ripping my arms off

It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain

I didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop

I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off

Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying

I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me

I wanted to make all your tears go away

I had so many plans to make you happy

Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered

Though I was in utter pain and horor, I felt the pain of myheart breaking, above all

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter

No use now, for I was dying a painful death

I couldn't imagine the terrible thing that they had done to you

I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand

And soon, I've no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead

I felt myself rising. I was being carried b a huge angel to a big beautiful place

I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone

The angel took me to God and set me oh his lap

He said he loved me, then I was happy. I asked him what the thing was that killed me

He answered, "ABORTION"

I don't know what abortion is;

I guess that's the name of the monster

I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl

I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live

I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me

It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you

I didn't want to die

Mommy I Love you and I wouldn't hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did

Please be careful.....